Can a person give up on life?

"In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?" Psalm56:4

I don't think about anything much nowadays. I just place my trust in God to guide me in my walk with Him. In a way, that is giving up on everything and to follow the Lord by faith alone. Still, as we walk with God, there are many challenges that the Lord will put in our path to test and teach us in our walk with Him. If we overcome these challenges and learn from them and not repeat whatever mistakes that we have done, then we have passed the test and teaching that God has given us.

It's so hard to follow and do all these. There are so many temptations along the way and most of us will be misguided and backslide and fall behind in the race and some of us might actually stop the race all together. Sometimes the challenges that we face is so tough and hard to overcome that we feel like giving up on life all together. The problems just increase and increase and we can find no solutions to these problems. What are we to do then? Give up or persevere? Many times I feel like giving up, I felt as is there is no place in this world for me. No one cares for me, I feel so alone. Then I remember the Lord Jesus and I know that He is with me and I feel better knowing that I am not alone. God is always with me.

A few years back, I threw everything I ever had away, a decent job, a decent life, a decent relationship, I wasted my life away and waited for whatever it is that will happen to me to happen. I day dream my life away. I want more and more things and I finally end up with nothing and a whole lot of things that I am not suppose to have, I got those. I gave up life back then. I became afraid with the thought of getting up from my bed and go out and face the world with nothing, so I locked myself up in the room and wasted my life away even more. My body became weak from the lack of food and I lost weight. I practically became a zombie.

I truly thank God that I am not like that right now. If I ever were like that again, I might as well die. Now I focus on what I need but still I splurge on what I want. What I need is more important that what I want. Therefor, I will from now on concentrate on what I need only and no more what I want. Control, God help me control myself.