150710 - Predators in Gurney Plaza

I actually didn't feel like going to watch the movie last night but a sudden urge to go watch movie came up and I went. I have to admit that going for movies with the guys and 1 gal from hard rock is very interesting. Haven't had that type of companionship for a while.
I used to do that all the time last time with the dudes back in hometown but since I started in hard rock, I haven't been hanging out with them a lot. Well, I got to concentrate on work and my working hours is not compatible with theirs.
Overall the movie was quite interesting, the plot was ok, and the action scenes was fast pased and cool. Reminds me of the first predator movie. The Arnold Susah-nak-eja one.

130710 - The Quest : Operation Gurney Plaza

I failed, I failed miserably. I went on a quest and I failed that quest. Now I have to suffer the consequences of my failure by having a piece of meat stuck between my teeth and no ammount of effort can dislodge it. No brushing can remove, no toothpick is flexible enough or the right size to fit in between my teeth to remove it. Only a certain component of a swiss army knife can do that and I can't find a swiss army knife in Gurney Plaza. I have failed my quest. I lost my special swiss army knife at work and now I have to suffer the consequences of losing it. I am a carefull person and I have no idea how I lost it. Where can I find a replacement for it? Where in Penang can I find a shop that sells swiss army knife? I have absolutely no idea.

Next up: The quest part 2: Operation KOMTAR.

030710 - another day another sad news

Girls are basically materialistic. Can't deny that. It pisses me off when I see that. I got nothing. I got nothing in my life. All I can give is my life as it is, a promise that I will never break your heart and all my loving devotion. I got no riches, I got no looks, I got nothing, I got NOTHING. All I have is my heart to give.

I can promise you this, I will not have another in my life if I have you. If I go out with you, I will only focus on you and you alone. You will be the world to me. A promise that I will never cheat on you, a promise that I will love you whole heartedly.

All I want in return is the same as what I can give. That you will not cheat on me, that you will place me first instead of as a last choice. If you can't love me anymore, then break the news gently to me because my heart is fragile and have many scars. Another scar to it will not do much but my broken heart takes a long time to heal. Please girl, break the news to me gently if you can't love me.

To have false hope and false dreams through out my life is sadness without limits. The pain and sadness that comes from it hurts. To find out last when everyone else knows is even worse. To keep me with all these false hopes and dreams, what were you thinking? Tell me first instead of last. Don't you find it awkward that you have to hide the truth from me all this time? To keep me hoping and thinking that everything is fine, I feel cheated. I truly do.

Still I thank you for what our relationship would have become, for letting me have hopes and dreams, even though it was for a short while. I don't want leftovers. Sorry, but I don't think I can love you anymore. What love I have is all gone. What could you know if you never even gave me a chance to show you my love, when you never even thought about me first. I was willing and was prepared to give my all to you. How much love I still have in my heart, it was all yours. You didn't even gave me a chance.

I don't have much love, I received even less when I grew up. What love I received as I grew up is stored. When I grew up, I start to use up what love I have untill it was depleted. I stop loving once. I began to received love recently and I started to store up on love again but now it's all gone. How can a person love when there is no love in that person? I got NOTHING. I got NO LOVE. I got NOTHING.

19610 - the time is now, the place is here

Sometimes, we just walk along a path and many path appears in front of us. Which is the correct path for us to walk on? Many paths will lead us away from the one true path. Will we choose the right one or the wrong one? When multiple choices appear in front of us and only one path is the correct one, how do we choose?
For me right now, the time is now and the place is right here. I have many choices in front of me and many paths in front of me. Can I make the right desicion and the correct choice that will not lead me down the worng path? The choices are very tempting ....

170610 - Another new day after my break

"The sun is shining and my eyes are blurry,
Keep the sun out of my eyes so that I can sleep more. I want to sleep more but the sun is shining into my eyes. Shut the curtain you fool and stop complaining about the sun.
I have to get up and go to work but I want to rest more. I need to rest more. Get a grip of your life dude and get up and get to work." - some messed up early morning ravings by me.

Life in front office reception is so cool. I mean hot. haha. The pressure and the heat that we face is just fantastic. The things that we do, nobody knows, only we know. We face the heat from the guest and so we implement HEAT to counter it. I love serving people. Going the extra mile and giving kick ass service to the guest, I mean our fans. Sometimes I don't know where the time goes, it passes so fast that I sometime complain I got so little time to do all the work. Love it!!!!
Will be facing more fire and heat later. The show must go on!!!!!

"Can someone, anyone just love me? Coz I ain't got no love, I ain't got no love baby~~~"

140610 - a hectic week and there's still more to come .....

It's been a truly hectic week and there is still more to come. I feel so tired and so over worked. Front office reception is truly different than housekeeping during peak season. The work never ends..... haha.





I get pissed off at people sometimes and there are others that treat me so well. Still, the show must go on. I must and I will treat everyone the same no matter what they do or say to me. The world is a stage and we are all actors ... =)





"Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievences you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you." Colossians 3:13

Live like we have never lived before, love like we have never loved before. I plan to put all my heart and my soul into whatever relationship that I will be in next. If I still fail, then I will give up on being in any relationship anymore and I will stay single for the rest of my life. I am too tired to look for and hope for any relationship anymore. My next one will be my last one.

110610 Early Friday Morning

I juz finish work and now I am onlining and FB-ing. I got to know a few people from KL last night when I went clubbing with the guys from Hard Rock. They are cool people. Met them again juz now at work.

People who face heartbreaks should go for a holiday to get over it. That's what they were doing. Trying to get over a recent heartbreak. I feel you gals!!!!! I know how it feels like. Still the feeling is there and the memories remain. Cheer up gals ... we can always hang out again sometime. =)

The people we meet, we can meet again. Sometimes our path cross each other and go along for a while, others it juz cross and cross again in the future, most of the time, our paths cross and never cross again. How I wish that our paths cross and cross and cross again.

"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow is the road that leads to life, and only a few find it." Matthew 7:13-14

Tuesday 080610

Time passes slowly when you are in trouble. When you think about things that will keep you awake. Time also passes slowly when you wait for someone you miss.

"who could it be the one you love, who do you want to stand inside your love? - smashing pumpkin"

When we want time to pass slowly it passes really quick and when we wish that tomorrow will never arrive so soon, the sun is up.

Saturday 05/06/10

I am working afternoon today but what am I doing awake so early? I should still be sleeping to prepare myself mentally and physically for the hectic situation which I know that I would face when I go to work later. Do I fear going to work and face such situation? I don't think so. I look forward to it, I just pray that I would be able to handle any situations later.

I am still trying to figure out what I am suppose to do in front office reception. I know what is expected of me and I believe what I think is right should be the right thing to do but I am still trying to figure out what really needs to be done in the cage. The cage is what we call the reception counter. I need to stand back and let my people handle the guest while I monitor and evaluate the situation. I must try my best in doing what supervisors are doing and I must learn more in order to do that. I will try my best.

Peace to all. Rock on!!!

I hate you

I f**king hate you. You piss me off all the time. As much as I hate you, I still have to love you because I must love all and serve all. Muaks ... I forgive you for you do not know what you are doing to me to cause me this hurt.

Can a person give up on life?

"In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?" Psalm56:4

I don't think about anything much nowadays. I just place my trust in God to guide me in my walk with Him. In a way, that is giving up on everything and to follow the Lord by faith alone. Still, as we walk with God, there are many challenges that the Lord will put in our path to test and teach us in our walk with Him. If we overcome these challenges and learn from them and not repeat whatever mistakes that we have done, then we have passed the test and teaching that God has given us.

It's so hard to follow and do all these. There are so many temptations along the way and most of us will be misguided and backslide and fall behind in the race and some of us might actually stop the race all together. Sometimes the challenges that we face is so tough and hard to overcome that we feel like giving up on life all together. The problems just increase and increase and we can find no solutions to these problems. What are we to do then? Give up or persevere? Many times I feel like giving up, I felt as is there is no place in this world for me. No one cares for me, I feel so alone. Then I remember the Lord Jesus and I know that He is with me and I feel better knowing that I am not alone. God is always with me.

A few years back, I threw everything I ever had away, a decent job, a decent life, a decent relationship, I wasted my life away and waited for whatever it is that will happen to me to happen. I day dream my life away. I want more and more things and I finally end up with nothing and a whole lot of things that I am not suppose to have, I got those. I gave up life back then. I became afraid with the thought of getting up from my bed and go out and face the world with nothing, so I locked myself up in the room and wasted my life away even more. My body became weak from the lack of food and I lost weight. I practically became a zombie.

I truly thank God that I am not like that right now. If I ever were like that again, I might as well die. Now I focus on what I need but still I splurge on what I want. What I need is more important that what I want. Therefor, I will from now on concentrate on what I need only and no more what I want. Control, God help me control myself.

Long Beach

Today was my last day working in the housekeeping department. There loads of checkout and everyone was working like mad. Lack of supervisor to inspect and handle floor due to some unforseen circumstances. I never really did say farewell to the maids in the housekeeping department properly. It's a good thing also because they won't have a chance to really torture me before I leave. Ha ha. I am going to miss the housekeeping department and the staffs working there. Even though I am always stressed in housekeeping but the teamwork that I see among the crew is really inspiring. I can only pray for them to maintain the attitude and energy that is really needed in bringing out the spirit of rock and roll in housekeeping. Guys and gals of housekeeping, you all rock. Good luck in facing the challenges of the future. I pray that any new crew leaders coming in will treat all of you the same as I did and have the same energy to keep up with all of you. Cheers~~~~~ housekeeping department, the unsung heroes and heroins of the hospitality industry, without you, the hotel can never operate!!!

On another note, I have been eating too much lately, all thanks to hanging out with Peggy. Yesterday went to red garden and I ate so much food there and today go to long beach and I ate a whole load of food again. I really got to cut down on my eating habit. It's gonna kill me one day. Ha ha. I ate one plate of sizzling hot plate followed by home made spring rolls and pizza. That's a lot. I also got to cut down on oily stuff, my face is exploding with zits~~~!!! That's what I get for eating oily stuff.

"But from everlasting to everlasting the LORD's love is with those who fear him, and his righteousness with their children's children - with those who keep his covenent and remember to obey his precepts." Psalms103:17-18

Front Office, I am on my way there again. This time I am prepared and I am ready to face all the challenges. I pray that I will do well there as I did before. I pray that I make the right and correct decisions and also may I guide the crew there well and provide a good example for the crew to follow.

Gonna be very busy very soon. I need to prepare myself physically and mentally to face the challenges that I will face each day. I will also be looking forward for a very special someone's arrival very soon. I juz pray that I will be able to be myself and that I show a good impression to her. Eve, if you are reading this, I am actually, really and truly looking forward to seeing you. Can't promise you much but I will try my best to do my very best. Cheers~~~~~

What are we really?

I dunno what to say. I am me and there can only be one me. I just sometime feel that I just want to be different. I want to be unique but them I realized that I am already unique. The Lord made all of us unique and we all have talents and we should use our God given talents to the fullest.

"However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me-the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace." Acts20:24

Prace and joy to all. Amen.

Ravings~~~~ can't sleep so write something

I juz feel like writing something right now. I still love someone but I dun think that she loves me anymore. I was totally broken when she broke up with me and I thought that I could move on with my life and get over it. I dunno what I should be feeling. Sometime I juz can't stop thinking about her, other times I dun even think about her. I know that I should really be moving on with my life and get over it but I dunno why I still have this feeling in me. Maybe it's juz a normal love for a good friend. I believe that I am a very loving person but I dun think that anyone would believe that when I say that out. Still, I can't stop thinking about her. What am I suppose to do? I juz keep on raving about things which is my mind that keeps running through my head. I am going to pour out everything in my head right now. I will be going to work in reception starting 1st June. Someone I have been waiting for is coming back I really dunno how to react to her. I have been waiting to meet and see her but I really dunno how to react or behave when I really meet her in person. People will say to juz act as myself but am I really going to give a good first impression to her. I am me. I am not that really cool or good looking or rich or whatever. I am juz a plain and normal person. I have nothing interesting or exciting happening around me. Help me~~~~!!!! And I am going to be bloody damn busy in June. I wonder if I got time to spenf with her?? As much as I tell people around me that I am single and that I have no girl friend in my life right now at this moment, none of them will believe me untill they see me walking around alone during my off days in Gurney plaza and that also they won't believe that I am single. Is it so hard to juz accept me as I am? Why is it that all my life right untill now, I keep seeing things that I am not suppose to see, when I can do nothing about it and I feel sad seeing these things happening. I am bored and lonely right now so all I do is make up my mind to fully concentrate on my work. But of course even when I work my ass off at the place that I work now, I dun get anything from it. I am not a patient person, when I want something, I work hard for it and when what I want is not given, I get pissed off. Anyway, the pay sucks. For someone with my qualification, people will say that I am juz wasting my time here working for such a disgracefull income. Still, I dun care coz I am still living, I am still alive, I can still spend enuf money doing what I want. I can cover all my needs. I just cannot have what I want that is all. But for me, what I need is more important that what I want. As long as I get to satisfy my need then there is no worries for me. Amen to that.

"Each of us should please his neighbour for his good, to build him up" Romans15:2

Shit, I am hungry now. Damn, I gotta sleep. Need to prepare assignments tomorrow. Haiz~~~~ life is life and there is nothing that we can do to change it. The Lord has already planned everything out for us. What we can do is juz to accept it. Nothing is what it seems untill you get to know the story behind the reason. We should not complain but juz accept whatever it is that is happening to us. There is always a reason that the Lord put us through trails and tests. It is to mould us into a better person. Amen. Peace out. Rock ON!!!!!!!!